Mew

It's just over a week ago that masha went to get her a cat scan. Monday we got the news that she has cancer. Dr Shankar was the oncologist who have us the report of innumerable masses throughout the liver. Her pancreas also had a mass covering the tail and there are more on her lungs and surrounding the aorta of her spleen.

We were both very shocked.

And she immediately said that she wanted to go home to the house. So we made a plan. 

She stayed with Denny Tuesday and did some work with him to. clear junk at the house. When i came over at the was sleeping on her side some but excited about how much work she had done with Denny. Just agreeing to toss one thing and save another. She was not eating much.

The next day, she was sore from sleeping on her side with her head against the wooden arm of the couch. Denny had her asleep all day and fed her a few times. From what i could hear, she had a little less than she really needs, so i encouraged her to eat a little and made some suggestions for sleeping better.

Thursday she was immobilized and barely eating. She complained of  the sharp pain in her neck on either side. Any vibration made her flinch. She was very brave and ate some. We made some arrangements for coming to the house after taking her to see her counselor.

The counselor supported her decisions and we talked to insure that we were all in the same page about what we had to do.

St patrick's brought a lot of activity to the bar nextdoor as they were roping off for a parade and an event scheduled Saturday. I thought it best to get out before they really started to party Denny did some shopping for us. Friday they went to see Dave about arrangements and she was out all day, so Saturday i thought she should rest as i had some rest while she was out.

M actually lay back with her head on one pillow with support for the head. She slept deeply in three hour shifts. I got her up in the morning Saturday and got some oats with blueberries into her, then she slept and had turkey when she awoke for lunch. We looked at some pictures of Jaime's wedding to Phyllis. It took me a while to realize that it was here. There were also some pictures of Perry in the sixties. Cute kid he was.

I noticed that she was nodding off while we talked, so i lay her back down.

She got up again at 3:30 and ate some potatoes and some of a smoothie.

I bought several milk thistle supplements and started both of us on them.

We called Gordon and then Peter. 

Gordon was upbeat.

I appreciate both of them.

I'm grateful for this time with my mother.

It means a lot to be able to care for her