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Thursday, March 25, 2021

Thursday

Today, I've got an appointment with Masha to go to her counselor. She has been eating lightly smoothies, grapes and cliff bars. We have an appointment with Charles Reismann, a lawyer to review her Will.
Her need for pain meds has increased.
The biopsy was terrible and stressful the days before and the recovery. I'm still not sure that the pain she has isn't hunger.
We talk when she is awake. I massage her back and shoulders feed her and then she lays back down. It's a struggle to get her to drink enough water.
I hate to see her suffer like this.
And I'm angry that Denny kept her this way protecting her, but neglecting her care.
He acts as though he has been the only one in her life these years, and she really started staying with him to control his drinking. I would drive her over nearly every day and we would clean him up and take away the bottles.
Eventually she just stayed there.
In the past few years he would seldom even take her home to her house and when he did he would stand outside smoking, coming in only to  impatiently say, "let's go."
He always wanted her to let go of the past but she never did.
She remained attached to me and too her own history, which is something Denny could not maintain.


1 comment:

  1. My mom passed away on april seventh. so soon after this post was made.
    it seemed like she was determined right up to the very end.
    i feel so luck to have been with her and to have known her all this time.

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