Breaking away

break up with Janet Friday evening in the car after work I got out after she asked me what do you want I was trying to confirm if we were going to the soccer game because she gave me a ticket and expressed an interest in going with me. I also ask if it was okay to come over and visit her at the store. and she said the same thing. it depends what do you want. I was holding her hand and she seemed really uncomfortable. I tried to move closer. but I thought that she was responding negatively--she got more tense. break before that I was at the library. I was texting to ask her if she wanted me to come meet her at the beach or come back to the store. when she said Beach I came right away. actually I've been to the store already. and seen it was closed. when I got to the beach she was cleaning out her car. she invited me to sit in the car with her. we had already missed the sunset. she told me that she had a appointment with the people about the apartment which I did not know. she said they didn't like her or that she didn't like them they were stuck up or something like that. and she talks more about her difficulties at her job. the customer that came in at the end. and a little bit about the two girls who had come and bought a whole bunch. she asked if I was flirting with them, and I said yes I guess so. I thought this was more of an accusation, but she asked in such a nice way, I don't know that I was flirting with them. technically I had no business talking to them since I don't work at the store. I felt a tremor of anxiety. there were several things about the way that Janet acted which seem different from how she was towards me at the store, she kept insisting that she was tired which I do believe. and I also thought that her interview with the renters had not gone very well. our conversations seem to be taking a negative Direction. she was very negative about the renters and about both of our jobs. and she said that she was ready to be done with the drama in her life. Masha and Denny had shown up at the store earlier. they looked around outside but did not come in. I said that I was confused about their behavior too. at the store when I showed up Janet suggested that there was a way out the back door. I had several simultaneous thoughts and it's difficult at this point. one was that they already knew I was there. I was worried about the tension of having them come in and have an awkward conversation with them. and I felt that their appearance dear meant that there would be more tension between Janet and I. now it seems to me that when Janet suggest something like "you can go out the back door" it is not because she thinks or I think that that would be the best option. it might have been the best option for her. since basically it means that I just left. leaving her to deal with them and avoiding them.