The few people I know who "quickly opened their hearts," were Adopted abused or fostered.
Buddha says we all are. Suffering is not separate from enlightenment, perfection or cruelty.
But i'm none of those things.
I thank you for recalling the Image that Eleanor Steeber made of the two sweaty kids with a stick and a ball in her back yard. She tried to teach us both to sing. but Mom wanted results.
I will never take the blame as your abuser. I loved you as a person and struuck out at you in childish ways I had good teachers.
The conditions of our childhood...
Cannot be laid to rest with kind words about seeking 'good Love,' nor is there a magic ring or a broken sword we can find to fix it all.
Mom manipulated Dad for years.
Jose Acuna used you, slandered me and stole Furniture ( i was a witness, I was blamed) Deidre suffocated an infant. Masha was tricked into relinquishing me.
I can learn from all of this and i can grow.
Love is a hard thing because we all die.
But you omitted a name from Father's obituary,
If you think anything nice you say makes you Like Plath;
take then, your knowledge and wisdom and slouch on to Bethlehem.
If you do not want to answer legal questions tell me the to whom i might write.
I don't have a year book.
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