Genau: Would you rather turn into a dolphin every time you swim or a bird every time you jump?

Genai:

That’s an interesting hypothetical! Let’s weigh the options:

1. Dolphin Transformation: Whenever you swim, you morph into a dolphin. You’d glide through the water, communicate with other dolphins, and experience the ocean in a whole new way. 🐬

2. Bird Transformation: Every time you jump (or leap), you transform into a bird. Imagine soaring through the sky, feeling the wind beneath your wings, and seeing the world from above. 🦅

Now, let’s break it down:

• Swimming Frequency: How often do you swim? If you’re a frequent swimmer, being a dolphin could be quite exciting. But if you rarely swim, the transformation might not happen often.

• Jumping Frequency: Similarly, consider how often you jump. If you’re a bouncy, energetic person, bird form might suit you. But if you’re more of a couch potato, the bird transformation might be infrequent.

• Environment: Think about where you live. If you’re near the ocean, being a dolphin could be practical. On the other hand, if you’re surrounded by trees and open spaces, bird form might be more convenient.

• Social Life: Dolphins are social creatures, while birds can be solitary or part of flocks. Which social scene appeals to you?

Ultimately, it depends on your personal preferences. Would you rather explore the depths of the sea or soar high in the sky? 🌊🌟Ah, the classic “transforming dilemma”! While I can’t grant you magical powers, let’s explore the possibilities:

1. Dolphin-Bird Shuffle: Imagine this: You’re swimming in the ocean, enjoying your dolphin form, and suddenly you see a majestic sunset. Inspired, you leap out of the water, and voilà! You’re soaring as a bird. 🌊🦅

2. Random Mode: Each time you swim or jump, it’s a surprise! Will you be a dolphin or a bird? It’s like a cosmic game of chance. 🎲

3. Scheduled Transformations: Set a calendar reminder. Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays: dolphin. Tuesdays, Thursdays, and weekends: bird. 🗓️

4. Emotional Switch: Dolphin when you’re feeling playful, bird when you’re contemplative. 🐬🤔

5. Choose Wisely: Commit to one form for a month, then switch. It’s like a subscription service: “This month, I’ll be a dolphin!” 📅

Remember, with great transformation comes great responsibility (and maybe some confused beachgoers). Choose wisely, my shape-shifting friend! 🌟🐬🦅Ah, the classic “transforming dilemma”! While I can’t grant you magical powers, let’s explore the possibilities:

1. Dolphin-Bird Shuffle: Imagine this: You’re swimming in the ocean, enjoying your dolphin form, and suddenly you see a majestic sunset. Inspired, you leap out of the water, and voilà! You’re soaring as a bird. 🌊🦅

2. Random Mode: Each time you swim or jump, it’s a surprise! Will you be a dolphin or a bird? It’s like a cosmic game of chance. 🎲

3. Scheduled Transformations: Set a calendar reminder. Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays: dolphin. Tuesdays, Thursdays, and weekends: bird. 🗓️

4. Emotional Switch: Dolphin when you’re feeling playful, bird when you’re contemplative. 🐬🤔

5. Choose Wisely: Commit to one form for a month, then switch. It’s like a subscription service: “This month, I’ll be a dolphin!” 📅

Remember, with great transformation comes great responsibility (and maybe some confused beachgoers). Choose wisely, my shape-shifting friend! 🌟🐬🦅Ah, the mystical fusion of sea and sky! 🌊🦅 Let’s imagine this extraordinary creature—the Dolphin-Bird Hybrid. 🌟

The Dolphbird: A Marvel of Nature

Appearance

• Body: Picture a sleek, iridescent body—a blend of dolphin and bird. It’s streamlined like a dolphin, yet feathered like a bird. 🐬🦢
• Color: Its scales shimmer with ocean hues—turquoise, indigo, and silver. Feathers transition from azure to sun-kissed gold. 🌈
• Wings: Wings sprout from its back, reminiscent of a manta ray’s fins. They’re strong, allowing it to glide effortlessly. 🌬️
• Tail: A dolphin-like fluke extends into a feathery tail, perfect for steering underwater and in the skies. 🌊✨

Abilities

1. Aquatic Mastery:

   • Swimming: The Dolphbird dives into the depths, navigating coral reefs and shipwrecks. It communicates with other sea creatures using clicks and whistles. 🌊🐠
   • Echolocation: Like a dolphin, it emits sonar pulses, mapping its surroundings. 🌐

2. Aerial Prowess:

   • Soaring: With a powerful leap, it transforms into bird form mid-air. Its wings catch thermals, spiraling upward. 🦅🌤️
   • Songbird Skills: The Dolphbird warbles enchanting melodies—part dolphin song, part bird trill. 🎶

3. Dual Environment Adaptation:

   • Saltwater Tolerance: It thrives in salty seas, but its feathers repel water, keeping it dry.
   • Airborne Agility: In bird form, it swoops, dives, and performs aerial acrobatics. 🌬️

Lifestyle

• Morning Routine: Sunrise swim, leaping into the sky, then a graceful dive—breakfast is a school of fish. 🌅🐟
• Afternoon Adventures: It explores shipwrecks, coral gardens, and hidden coves. Occasionally, it perches on cliffs, surveying the coastline. 🏝️
• Nighttime Ritual: Under the moon’s glow, it sings ballads to the stars, its notes echoing across land and sea. 🌙🎵

Challenges

• Identity Crisis: Is it more dolphin or bird? It grapples with its dual nature, seeking acceptance from both worlds.
• Social Quirks: At dolphin gatherings, it tries to mimic clicks but ends up tweeting. Bird flocks eye it suspiciously. 🤔

Conservation Efforts

• Scientists study the Dolphbird, hoping to unlock secrets of hybrid adaptation.
• Environmentalists protect its habitats—oceanic sanctuaries and coastal cliffs.

Remember, dear reader, the Dolphbird reminds us that boundaries are meant to be blurred, and magic exists where sea meets sky. 🌊🦅✨Ah, the mystical fusion of sea and sky! 🌊🦅 Let’s imagine this extraordinary creature—the Dolphin-Bird Hybrid. 🌟

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write more?

I should write more, or else this isn't really a blog. i do sometimes keep posts as drafts, but i always get to thinking that my thoughts are too depressing, to personal or too insignificant for people to bother reading. 

And you are probably tuning out right now, but wait. i do have a story to tell and it is worth listening to.

My mother died of Pancreatic Cancer on April Seventh of 2021 and today i signed papers deeding her estate to me. Yesterday i was at the bank transfering funds from inherited IRAs. I've been crying a lot, especially in the mornings. I like to go to the park and say my prayers by the water under the old oaks on the indian mound. A few weeks after she died i came home and realized that I had left my phone somewhere, probably one of the benches where id sat, at the park. first, I called and texted my number from my mothers phone which was still active, and headed back  to retrace the steps from my walk. I found a heart-shaped note, fixed in place with a stone and called the number, sure enough he had a phone but sounded confused but agreed to come meet me. He still seemed baffled as he approached the bench and asked for ID. "How do i know its your phone," he asked, "There was a lady here. We said good morning." i told him that i hadn't seen anyone else when i was there. He explained that it was the woman whose picture came up on the phone. "She had a slight accent," he said, "maybe European." 

It was my turn to be confused. After explaining to him how i came to have my mother's phone he returned mine reluctantly. I realized that some woman must have sat there for a moment and said hello, thinking he was looking for his phone, and when he found it he thought that it was an opportunity to do something nice for a friendly attractive woman. Maybe she did  look a bit like my mother and he hoped to make her acquaintance. I felt a little sad because i thought it would have been nice for him to meet someone that way. But I also thought of Masha and how she would do something like that, guard a strangers phone and make sure it got back to its rightful owner. I felt protected, as if her spirit in some way watched over me. I still say hello to that guy when i see him walk his dog.

I still cry sometimes when i sit on the bench. We did visit that park a few times before she died, and i think she would enjoy sitting with me and listening to a little ghost story.

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Thursday

Today, I've got an appointment with Masha to go to her counselor. She has been eating lightly smoothies, grapes and cliff bars. We have an appointment with Charles Reismann, a lawyer to review her Will.

Her need for pain meds has increased.

The biopsy was terrible and stressful the days before and the recovery. I'm still not sure that the pain she has isn't hunger.

We talk when she is awake. I massage her back and shoulders feed her and then she lays back down. It's a struggle to get her to drink enough water.

I hate to see her suffer like this.

And I'm angry that Denny kept her this way protecting her, but neglecting her care.

He acts as though he has been the only one in her life these years, and she really started staying with him to control his drinking. I would drive her over nearly every day and we would clean him up and take away the bottles.

Eventually she just stayed there.

In the past few years he would seldom even take her home to her house and when he did he would stand outside smoking, coming in only to  impatiently say, "let's go."

He always wanted her to let go of the past but she never did.

She remained attached to me and too her own history, which is something Denny could not maintain.

masha with Rob McCann and Hayden

A photo of Masha's cousin Rob McCann with her and his wife Hayden.

This was in March of 2018

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